NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

So yesterday me and my husband (gosh it still feels very strange to say so)
decided we will do the arty farty thingy and we would go to see a movie which is not mainstream and more importantly absolutely NOT made in America (you all know my take on blockbusters)and after much deliberation we decided to go and watch SAKURAN
(http://www.guardian.co.uk/film/2008/aug/29/drama.worldcinema?gusrc=rss&feed=film)
it is showing at the ICA if you are interested....
before movieing (as i like to call it)we went to the narrow boat for an outrageously overpriced (37.00 pounds) and not so good meal (that pub has seen the last of me)
we then made our way to the ICA....
scene
(early night...dark sky...chatty tourists)
richard:"ahhh i did not know there was a movie theater, over here on the Mall"
barbara:"well it is not really a movie theater, per se it's part of the ICA"
richard "the what?"
barbara:"ICA... Institute of contemporary art"
richard- looking at Barbara with a knowing face:"ahhh it's one of those isn't it?"
barbara- with a strange glint in her eyes kind of knowing "what's coming on":"One of those what???"
richard:"One of those alternative, my father is very rich but i pretend to be a striving artist and live in chelsea with my parents' money,subversive leftistish kind of places where they only play arty farty black and white with subtitles kind of movies??????"
barbara:"exactly..."
so we went in...got tickets; i got 2 leftistish subversive books, richard almost bought a copy of a magazine called BUTT(no guess what it is about:P)
and we went into the movie theater,...8 people in all...amazingly great i had space i could stretch and most important no pop corns, nachos, candies, ice cream etc etc etc - no kids screaming - no i came to the movies to catch up kind of people - and most important a good movie...
richard got bored, but after 2 hours of japanese subtitled i can see his point of view...he did enjoy the boobs though...(the movie boobs, not my boobs...)
all in all a good evening
:)

I feel kind of funny

I strangely feel that my world is slipping away

And yes I know it is going to be all right

And bla blab la

But I just really feel like the world is sucking away a big part of me and I feel strangely empty

i am back and will start using this again
...
i need a place to think and plan
....

stupid and sad
i do not want to leave this place
my first house
i hate imposed change

oh my gosh...
so many things have happened since i last posted that i do not know where to start
I am now starting to settle in my new job... but to be honest after 11 years of shift work i find it hard to get used to this 9 to 5 thingy....
i met a lot of people mat work most of them nice and polite...
i went already to 3 work functions....
and i had a most surreal experience on Thursday...
I am looking for some new people to hire for my dept and on Thursday this little funny looking Sicilian girl comes along.... she is really short ... not the most good looking girl...she is wearing a stalker like red little coat and she talks really really with a thick accent...
my gosh i wanted to scream deja vu and run away...
i am sorry to say she did not get the job...on the reason that my assistant manager thought she was "strange"...again deja vu......
and then yesterday i had the best evening in months....
i will not go into details...vodka is still pumping through my veins, but i just wanted to say
THANK YOU CAMILLA, THANK YOU KRIS, THANK YOU AARON AND THANK YOU DAWN...

... So I planned to write a little bit since Tuesday but then i got busy...
I am finding myself in an Interlude a period of time in between life adventures
on Tuesday I said goodbye to Delta airlines..as my father said I really never liked it there
nothing wrong with the place or the people ( to be quite honest i did something i should never have done and that was grow attached to the people over there and leaving Tuesday was very painful as i am certain i will never see 95% of them ever again..)but it was just not for me
I come from an industry that wants to give the best customer service ever and i found myself in an enviroment where people that supposedly where there to help the customer actually felt like they were talking to idiots...
I will never get over how rude to customer they are..i tried to change them but it is very difficult when you have to deal with people that have been in a job for 15 years and do it just because they are to old to go anywhere else and do not really care about what they are doing...
...but enough it is over...
so now I am awaiting to start my new job on Monday, I have got the schedule for the first week..
site visits site visits site visits...
It sounds quite tiring, but i am so excited and so looking forward starting...
I really feel like a new chapter in my life is beginning..here i am new house (well not so new any more but a real place), an almost husband, a new job, free from the energy vampires I had around me... i am just pure and simply happy
...
and before finishing i need to thank Raffaella that reminded me how nice it is to spend a girly day with someone that actually gives a toss about what i have to say ... instead of someone that pretended to listen to me while minding her own business...
I had not had a girly day in such a long time i had almost forgot how it felt... so girls out there be prepared I want more of those... I will be asking you out!!!!!!
...
In the meantime just let me play good housewife and let me go prepare the dinner for intellectronica and kasetnik tonight....

Last friday in the office
just looking forward going home
the patient requires chili con carne .. so i am off to do shopping to feed my piccino...
this is the last friday in this office
I can almost smell the freedom

ok.. so here we go
Yesterday we spent the evening at Homerton Hospital
(i will avoid the details on i got there after being verbally abused by a gang of black teenagers and having stuff hurled at me with the classiest sentence shouted at me:"i will fuck you and will fuck your mother" to make this shorter)
We arrived at 8pm and a nurse saw richard immediately... we then had to wait for a doctor we were told it would take about 2 hours but we actually had to wait only 1 hour and 15 minutes...
so in we go in one of this terrible boots that are typical of uk ERs....
on the floor there was blood and not even fresh blood(i will try not to comment on this ....clean your hospitals you dirty people!!!!!!!!!!!)
anyway nurses were really nice and polite and told us they will take some blood for an examination...
i start to shiver as i cannot stand needles and decide not to watch... but you know me... well i had to
the nurse had this (to me) enormous metal needle nozzle that looked big enough for an elephant ... she stuck it into richard and behold no blood came out....she tried 6 different syringes but no... no blood... finally after maneuvering the needle in an out of the vein several times she got some drops out... i almost fainted... we were told Richard's blood was very thick and advised he had to drink more water ( i almost cringed but said nothing)
.....
we waited for another 30 minutes and so and then got a very nice doctor, she was very nice and conducted examinations... no real damage was revealed in Richard's brain.. however there were some problems with his sinuses and his blood pressure so we had to wait for the results of the blood tests...another 45 minutes...
the verdict in the end was infection of sinuses- high blood pressure
need to see gp in a couple of days
and to help you with the pain we give you this quite high dosage of codeine...
(why buy drugs from a dealer when you can get them free from your local ER???)
...
so it is all well what ends well
it took us millions of years to get home...
i slept 4 hours and my level of adrenaline were so high my muscles are all aching.... this morning i strapped richard to his bed as he wanted to go to work....
I could go on and make all sort of comments, but this post is already too long ....
all you guys try to have good days
all right??
(i feel a bit like Nigel Tufnell today!!!!!)

PS
THANK YOU TO ALL YOU GUYS FOR WRITING - PHONING - SENDING GOOD VIBES
I COULD NOT ANSWER AS I WAS TOO NERVOUS BUT I REALLY REALLY APPRECIATED IT
I WILL CONTACT YOU ALL DURING THE DAY
PROMISE

PAnic Panic Panic
Richard is going to the hospital tonight
I am hyperventilating
you guys know me I am the queen of drama queens
just need to be told everything will be all right

CHRISTMAS. New Year’s Eve. The Spanish Bank Holiday; there are certain dates on the calendar when you know there is a strange feeling in the air,this year we are graced with another “mystical” date Saturday, July 7…
7-07-07
The number 7 has held a special significance at least from the time of the ancient Babylonians, who revered the seven sacred planets, and it is a crucial numeral in the Bible, as in the seven days of the Creation to the seven petitions of the Lord’s Prayer.
So what is happening today in the world???
Is ti really a magical and mystical day?????
• In Singapore 777 couples got married today (it seems it is a very auspicious day to get married)
• The 7 new wonders of the world are announced today (these are the old ones … Great Pyramid at Giza ,Hanging Gardens of Babylon, Statue of Zeus at Olympia, Temple of Artemis at Ephesus, Mausoleum at Halicarnassus , The Colossus of Rhodes, The Lighthouse of Alexandria)
• World series of Poker (more luck for the players???)
• Strangely and tragically enough 70 people died because of an explosion in Baghdad today
• But the day is truly miraculous as Live Earth is taking place… in seven continents…( who’s playing Antarctica???????)
• But the proof that this is really a magical and mysterious day is that Spinal Tap will be playing at Live Earth!!!!!
…all together now:
“The bigger the cushion, the sweeter the pushin'
That's what I said
The looser the waistband, the deeper the quicksand
Or so I have read

My baby fits me like a flesh tuxedo
I'd like to sink her with my pink torpedo

Big bottom, big bottom
Talk about bum cakes, my girl's got 'em
Big bottom drive me out of my mind
How could I leave this behind?”

I JUST NEED TO SCREAM THIS
I HATE MY JOB
I HATE MY JOB

..I am back
somehow still jetlagged (i need to sleep)
so i made it to Atlanta and our international leadership conference
I am now a better leader... or so my mini diploma says...
we arrived on tuesday and after a quick chat with Immigration i made it over the border, sleep in our eyes and a rattle in our legs me and my colleague made our way to MARTA(kind of a train system or as they call it "transport" - it felt like we landed on Tatooine, the air was so dry and hot), after 45 minutes we arrived at one of the many mall that make any of my business trips to Atlanta worthwhile... to cut it short i spent about 400 dollars in shopping and arrived at the hotel for check in ATL time 8pm... all of my other colleagues had arrived and were living it large in the bar... I decided to meet them as you need to fight jet lag as much as you can... so i just went up to my room to drop the shopping and have a quick shower... total darkness...I wake up at 3 am ATL time sitting in the armchair in my room; no idea who i was, where and why.....
On Wednesday first conference day... and guess what we were ushered into the audithorium tot he sound of??
Yes you guessed it: "Eye of the tiger" (my company has made research and it seems it is one of the most inspirational songs...EVER....)
So we spent the day discussing wherre we were as a company and where we are going... I had to ask if they thought there would be enough space, but they did not understand....after lunch we had a seminar...
HOW TO KEEP THE CHILD IN YOU ALIVE
Let's for a second focus on this...
.. Nerdy skinny guy (the speaker) walks on stage and pretend to make a call with a fisher price phone (you know the type that makes funny noises when you press a button)..corporate I earn much more that you will ever do guy from the audience asks:"hey dude, where did you get the cool Nokia from???"...
...halfway through the seminar i reach boredom factor 8947625 and very loudly meaow... I am called to the stage... he asks: "do you have a child in you?" i answer:"do I look pregnant????"...general merryment from the rest of the delegates...
I am held to example on how i have kept the happiness and "stupidity" of childhood alive in me and how everyone should try to act more foolishly and have fun...
I think "they are payiong this guy at least $3000 for this seminar...I am definitely in the wrong job"
...in a fleeble attempt to make the audience take part the speaker makes everyone say BRICOLAGE... more than once... because it is a funny word.....
...........................
Having survived the seminar we headed back to our rooms, I went with an escort to make sure i did not pass out..again... put on our corporate T-Shirt, jeans, trainers, cap (all corporate and everyone had the same mind you)
and made our way to Turner Field... took control of our suite and enjoyed Braves Vs NY Mets... I never liked nor disliked baseball, but i really had a good time.. we made hot dogs and had pizza with champagne( i know, but it was nice)..the Mets won and everyine was sad except us... shame of shame we were drunk....(free beer and free champagne and you expect us not to drink???? Doh!!!!
the next day is a blur.. I never struggled soo much to stay awake at a meeting...4 coffes and a bout of intestinal tragedy later my presentation resounded like pink cherry slush ... luckily everyone in the room was almost as damaged as me so they found my presentation intersting, insightful and full of new ideas...( I have received emails today congratulating me..)
made to the hilton bar where we awaited check in time drinking more... I loove bloody Mary in America..
so on friday i made it back.. have not slept since... all in all a great trip, altough i do not appreciate corporativism i always have a great time in the US the people are amazing... and do allow me this:
A note to all of the men and women i saw and met in ATL airport bound to IRAQ
on tv you seem like you really are not real, but you are and so soooo yung...
my heart goes out to you in way too corny and painful to put into words
.....
sorry but it always traumatise me to see them there going maybe to death...and for what??
anyway I am back at work and i cannot keep my eyes open

I am particulary glad to toast to the end of this week
it has not one of my best week this year
first on monday got refused a job i would have really liked
and then the event rolled to thursday and friday when i got contacted by my ex boyfriend
he is going back to Italy for good,things have not been good for him since we split, so many things happened to him that i felt so sad for him and wish i could help him, but....
Had a blast on Thursday (that night made my week guys) with great people and discovered amazing burgers at the Eagle bar (thank you Lars)
and so here we are
at work, again,
just counting the minutes before running out and jump on a car that will take me to Camden
I am going to be at The Good Mixer with soem friends should you feel the compulsive desire to see me
:):)

so after 2 months and 5 (yes 5)
interviews i did not get the job
it is all down to how my skills would
fit into their team and how new i would be to the company
in other words
they told me where to go
sad
depressed
want to cry
instead i will be working in the crap place where i am now